Let's Start at the Very Begining.....

Most women I know no matter how thin have issues with their bodies. My body issues started sometime in elementary school, who knows maybe I've had them since birth, I don't remember when I didn't have them. I always wanted to be "skinny" only at the time I didn't realize that I WAS "skinny". To the left is me at age 18 approximately 145lbs, I have to guess because even then I was lying about my weight. At the time I thought I was chubby and always making plans and bargains about how I was going to buckle down and loose 40lbs. Wiser, older me knows that 105lbs is a delusional goal.  My point being that I have always been unhappy with my body and I have decided to get real about the situation.

Since the glory days of high school I have been gradually putting on the pounds. It started in College not eating regularly and constantly eating out. I put on the typical freshmen fifteen, then the sophomore fifteen and then the Junior and Senior twenty. During college I tried Atkins, South Beach, the Zone and any fad diet that I thought might hold the secret to getting my weight back under control. I never was able to stick to a plan for more than a few months and they never gave me amazing results that could justify depriving myself of something really tasty and sinful like a piece of chocolate cake with chocolate ganache yum, or better yet mash potatoes (my fav) load with butter, cream and garlic.

During my senior year of college, I fell in love with my boyfriend of now four and half years Alex. I like to call this my Fat and Happy phase. After college I moved in with Alex, started working, moved to a new apartment,  adopted a cat, lost a job, got another job, Alex went back to school, moved again, adopted another cat, got laid off, got hired back. Life and its crazy roller coaster happened and through all of this I have been happy. I have found a true partner who makes me laugh at the silliest things, loves almost all of the same geeky things that I do, loves food as much and I do and he loves me no matter what size I am. But over the past 4+ fun filled years I have continued to pack on the pounds. So this is the part where I get real about my situation and tell you how much I weigh 224lbs, which at a height of 5'4 is not flattering.With this blog I'm hoping to keep myself accountable and prove to myself that this time I can achieve my weight loss goal of 145lbs and transition from Fat and Happy to Healthy and Happy. I'm hope to post every weekday, so keep checking back to see how I'm doing on my journey.